God's vomit

Revelation 3:14-16
I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other. So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

The Message...
"I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You're not cold, you're not hot—far better to be either cold or hot! You're stale. You're stagnant. You make me want to vomit."

Yikes!

Yep.

This evening in my Monk's assignment, I was suppose to relate myself to one of these two conditions:

1 - The first describes folks who go from one big sin to the next – and how Satan entices them with desires and the promise of satisfaction in their selfish lives, and how the Holy Spirit just picks at their consciences and tries to reason with them about what they are doing.

2 - The second describes people that are intensely cleansing their lives and rising from good to better in the service of God. In their lives, the enemy bites at them, tries to sadden, place obstacles in their way, disquiets them with false thinking and discourages. In them the Holy Spirit gives courage, consoles, inspires and gives quiet, removing hindrances so that they feel they can move forward.

I mean, I don't see myself as either of those right now. It's sad to say - Not about the first one. I don't think I'm some heathen jumping from one big sin to the next while Satan sensationally tempts me with the satisfaction of selfish desires. Yet, I think I would be overstating my condition if I said I was "intensely cleansing my life and rising from good to better in my service of God.

Are those really my only options? How about just hanging out, doing my thing, not really being bad, not really drawing people to Him either. But wait, that's not being cold, nor hot.

Did God just throw up a little in His mouth? Did I do that?

Crap - I need to take a long, hard look at this one.

God, sorry I make You sick to Your stomach. But thanks for pointing it out...